Been Awhile

But here I am!

I haven't exercised lately...going to go do that in about 7 mins. (Cause I procrastinate like that!) But I have been watching what I eat. The scale this morning says 221.4 I'm kind of excited to see what my original weight was. I don't remember for sure! So I should really go change to meet my now 6 minute deadline...:)

We All Gotta Start Somewhere

Yes, I know my last entry was how I was going to start exercising. Let's just say Day 1 did not turn into Day 2.

20 days later I get on the scale and to what do my wondrous eyes appear? The number 228.6 The highest I've ever seen the scale hit was 232 and I really don't want to go back there again.

Breakfast: 1/2c cottage cheese with 1/2c light yogurt
Lunch: 3oz chicken breast, 2c lettuce, 1tbsp asiago cheese & 3tbsp lite Ceasar dressing (yes. I
know 3tbsp is a lot, but I LOVE dressing and I'm taking baby steps here)
Snack: 1 applesauce w/protein water drink
Dinner: 1/2c chicken salad, 2c lettuce, 1tbsp shredded cheddar, 3tbsp lite dressing & 1/4c crouton

I've had about 70 oz of water today.
And exercised.
Jillian Michaels is insane. I can understand how people on The Biggest Loser lose weight! I did (most of) her 30 Day Shred video. I think my sweat sweated. I did have to take pauses to catch my breath. But I completed it!

But Day 1 is always easy! Day 1 I'm full of promise. Energy. Excitement. High on the possibilities.

Day 2. I'll see you tomorrow. :)

Forgot About This Here Place...

Yeah, so blogging...just one more thing I'm trying to keep track of in life. LOL! Not working out so well.

I'm really tired. This two job thing is kicking my ass. It's not that I work a ridiculous amount of hours, it's just that I only have 4 days off a month. That's not a lot. Days off I want to spend doing fun things with my family, not cleaning! And after a long day at work I don't feel like cleaning. So when does that mean the cleaning gets done? In Aubrey's World it means NEVER! I either need Molly Maid to come clean this place up or Calgon to take me the hell up out of here. But since neither of those are really viable options I'm putting a plan together...

I started working out this morning. Since taking my new FT job I am living like a slug. Except for the slimy part. I do shower afterall. But other than that I sit at home trying my best to grow into the couch. I must admit the 30 minute walk routine I did kicked my ass. I can't wait to wake up and do it again in the morning...

*munch crunch munch*

I LOVE FOOD!!!!

However...I do not love being a big girl.

I want to lose weight. But I don't want to give up eating delicious food...junk food...fast food...sweet food...greasy food...well, you get the idea. And I just don't know what to do.

Ok, so I KNOW what to do. I just don't know how to make myself do it. I have no self control. I have no motivation. All I do is sit on the couch like I'm waiting to grow into it. I chose tv and computer over getting up and moving. How in the hell do I break this cycle?

I feel so many things in my life are disjointed at this point. I need some glue or duct tape to start putting it all together.

...to be cont...

My Son: The Ball Player

My son is 6. And life would truly be boring without him...

Jace plays softball in a Miracle Youth League in our county. It's for kids up to age 18 that have a disability. Jace has cerebral palsy resulting from his birth at 24w gestation. We are blessed that it only mildly affects his motor skills so he's able to get out there and play pretty good...when he wants to. His attention span is about that of a fly! lol

So Sunday we arrive to the ball park all ready to play ball! I'm carrying Evie (2yr old daughter) who as soon as we start walking says, "Is hot." Which is a very accurate observation!

Jace plays his ball game where he periodically runs out of the dugout to me to let me know that ball players need to rest so he doesn't want to run anymore. He stands on the field (with his father at his side) and they are both looking bored out of their minds and fanning their shirts out. Can't blame them. After all "Is hot" out that day.

An hour later and the game is finally over...we're walking to the car. Dad and Evie ahead of us...Dad complaining we're never going again if it's over 80 degrees (Uh, hellO! It IS summer)... and Jace attempting to tell me something about, "coming here"
Here is our conversation:

Jace: " (inaudible) coming here (inaudible)"

Me: "What Jace?"

Repeat three times.

Me: "You like coming here?"

Jace: *stops walking & glares up at me* "I'd like to QUIT coming here!"

I can't wait for the next 4 Sundays! lol

Maybe if I Blog This Out I'll Quit Being Pissed

I am so pissed off I'm not in NYC today.

At first Husband was not thrilled with me going so I let it pass. Then brought it up again and he agreed I could go. YEA! So started making plans...even though the plans weren't coming together I was still thinking to try and make the best of it. NYC! NKOTB! RCMH!

So then Husband decides, "No Wife. You can't go." WTF? Seriously?

While the inner teenager that has been stirred in my soul thinks I'll just go ahead and go...the Mom in me says I can't do that. So Teen-Me and Mom-Me spent about a week arguing. And again... here my big ass sits on the couch. Mad. Sad. Disappointed I'm missing out.

My Twitter timeline is full of pics, fun and memories being made...FaceBook is full of the same. And I have no ill feelings towards everyone having the fun I'm just so jealous I can taste it. I don't like feeling jealous...I'm really blessed in life so jealousy isn't something that I'm used to.

Whatever the next NKOTB adventure may be...COUNT ME IN LADIES! I've already made the executive decision to go...and whatever I have to do to make it happen will be alright with me.

Dear NKOTB Gods,
Please let them tour again. Please don't let this ride be over.
Or at the very least let Jordan finish his solo stuff and make a tour across the States...
AMEN.

Not Much Has Changed

So I found this from Blog Attempt #2 - 1 year and 1 week later it's still relevant. LOL!
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Blogging: Day 1

So why am I blogging?

I'm not entirely sure. I've always enjoyed writing. Since getting married and starting a family it's not something I do anymore. I used to write some short stories and a lot of poetry, even had some published. I always wanted to write a novel. Something romantic and meaningful...

But anyhow.

I'm Aubrey, nice to meet you. I have 1 husband, 2 kids, 2 dogs and 3 cats. I think I need one more husband to help round out the numbers. :) I live in the country. I love food. I struggle with my weight. I love to laugh. I LOVE to hear my kids laugh! I hate the herb rosemary. I love New Kids on the Block! I love animals. I have tattoos. I have personal strength that 5 years ago I didn't know I have. I know Depression. I love warm days. I love rainy days. I hate snow. I watch too much reality tv. I'm funny. I'm forgetful. And that's a little bit about me.

See you tomorrow!